You are my hiding place; you will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance.
~Psalm 32:7 NIV~
I’ve been gone. Not sure where I was exactly, but I’ve been watching things from the sidelines and wondering if it will ever be safe to get back in the game again. For a while, I was busy all the time and I was working on so many projects that I couldn’t breathe. I had to slow down and think about which direction made sense. After all, I can only go down one path at a time.
For the past year, I’ve been doing a bit of mental and spiritual de-cluttering. Well, not just a bit…a whole bunch of de-cluttering. I’ve cut some people loose. I’ve abandoned some projects that no longer made sense. I’ve begun to rethink the path I was on and to evaluate where it was eventually going to take me if I continued. I decided that it was all wrong. Just about everything in my life was making me unhappy or at the very least, uncomfortable. So, I started making some plans. Yes, my escape is imminent!
The answer, at its most basic level, is that if it hurts then it has to go. If I spend even one moment feeling less than because of someone or something, then I need to figure out how to remove that someone or something from the path I am on. Or, I just need to change my path. Granted, when you are a single parent and you have one source of income, it isn’t always easy to switch tracks in mid-stream. Our obligations don’t stop just because we have an epiphany.
Sometimes, we have to just pray and make our plans and wait for God to open the doors we need Him to open. We can go about our business even when we’re not happy, and then one day, when everything is in place God will give us a nudge to set out in a new direction. So, I’ve been making some plans. And yes, I know that my plans really don’t mean much if it’s not in God’s plan for me. I definitely ask Him for direction and to show me where He wants me to be. He’s been pointing me towards something new and I’m happy with the idea of moving away from where I’ve been. Mentally, Spiritually, and Physically. I’m ready to chart a new course and get started on the next leg of this journey.
There are many things that I need to do and once the plan is set in motion, there will be no turning back. God has given me a new vision for my future and I’m waiting…somewhat impatiently…to set out on that journey. For now, He’s making me rest and recover from all the things that have done damage over the years. He’s been helping me to clean out all of the toxins and to see some things more clearly. I know that where I now want to go is where I am truly meant to be and I can’t wait to get there.
See, the former things have taken place, and new things I declare; before they spring into being I announce them to you.”
~Isaiah 42:9 NIV~